MY SOULMATE PUG GRACIE IS BATTLING LIVER CANCER. Again!
I am dying inside and don’t know how to cope.
I wanted to do a video .. but every time I try I fall apart.
This started 1 year & 3 months ago.
In November 2024 she didn’t want eat & started shaking. We rushed her to the ER & they discovered a massive Liver Tumor which was bleeding. She got a transfusion & emergency surgery. The tumor removed.
A massive Hepatocellular Carcinoma.
No clean margins because too close to a major artery – but they said these tumors are RARE & SLOW growing, she will be ok for YEARS.
7 MONTHS LATER, ANOTHER TUMOR GREW. I was devastated. A second surgery. Removed with CLEAN MARGINS. Again, rare, unusual, it won’t come back!
4 MONTHS LATER, it re-grew where the 1st one was!!
Chemo doesn’t work on these liver tumors. Best chance is always surgery.
This one was removable, so again, she went into 3rd surgery.
CLEAN MARGINS. Recovered great.
3 MONTHS LATER a checkup and here we are again!!
BUT THIS TIME – there are Nodular “masses” in every liver lobe.
No longer surgically removable.
Traditional Chemo doesn’t work.
Other options like radiation or embolization wont work because more than one mass.
There is a human liver cancer drug SORAFENIB.
Might or might not work just to slow down tumor growth. High toxicity. A study of just 7 dogs is all they have to go on.
I CANNOT BELIEVE THIS SITUATION.
I would go to the ends of the earth for GRACE.
I feel so helpless.
I have been waking up in a panic attack at 4am every night & reading, researching any way to save my baby.
I don’t see a way out.
And I don’t see how I can live without her. I had her since she was a few hours old. I bottle fed her & raised her & her brother when everyone told me they wouldn’t survive.
She is my baby!
She is my foundation.
She is the one to taught me to fight HARD to save pugs. Every single one I have – the hardest ones.
She sleeps on my head every night.
Her face is the last one I kiss at night & first I kiss in the morning.
She is 13 years old & perfect, other than this liver monstrosity.
How do I just watch her die?
And how do I go on without her?
I have watched so many pugs die over the years .. I accepted this mission from God despite the endless pain. My heart is already in a million pieces barely holding on. Why can’t I just have Gracie a little longer … they already don’t live long enough .. why is God doing this?
